retrospective for you

you grip me with sadness
attack me with pain
the hurt runs so deep
i alone care in vain
an impromptu genocide
destroys each loving thought
i am always there
always there let down
for you i'd die
thanks comes sans tears
no more longing
hope lost in time
caught on the rocks
the tide returns the thoughts
memories of you
alone with me
everything is perfect
the spring knows no end
but autumn lurks in leaves
and you have left
along with my life
the happiness of old