Sunday, December 18, 2005

nighttime philosophy

Here are the most powerful points of my nighttime discussion with Brian Hillman about life and the way it should be lived. I hope that they somehow impact you and how you live.

1. Mistakes are great, they humble you. They make you a better person.
2. Being a failure for a lifetime is being a failure. Being a failure and learning from that failure is being a man.
3. There are successes in life and then there are failures. You take them cum grano salis.
4. Hillman: But life sucks.
Me: Sure it does, but then you grow older and wiser and realize that it really was not that bad.

As some of you may know, Brian Hillman is completely obsessed with the idea of going to and "elite university" because he thinks that it is the only way for him to be fulfilled. He does not believe in happiness anymore because he says that it cannot exist. He has also become increasingly depressed about the situation because the day of college applications is looming in the next year. I truly feel bad for him. There is nothing in this world more important to him than achieving this goal, not family, friends, emotions, or life. Every now and again we have a little discussion, just so I can see at what stage his mental health has deteriorated to. I feel the need to help him, but there is nothing I can say. He feels that his actions are completely justified by the philosophy that he reads and the types of people that he admires. Having him around in a group setting destroys the mood and kills and semblance of fun that existed. His trek to Homecoming this year consisted of mathematical calculations about his chances of getting into Princeton. No dancing, no fun. All of those above points were disagreed with by him. He no longer desires to live the life of a "normal" human. He would rather become a robotic amalgam of intellect and wasted emotion, living outside the realm of reality and humanity. Mark Twain once said, and for Brian Hillman, Samuel Clemens once said, "A man who carries a cat by the tail learns something he can learn in no other way." Failure is the best teacher. I hope that one day Brian will wake up and realize that most of his young life was wasted on an outlook as narrow-minded as the Nazis'. Yes, I went there.

1 Comments:

Blogger Isaiah DeRose said...

Haha yeah I hope Hillman doesn't kill himself if he doesn't make a prestigious college: A report showed that high-power college students haave no advantage in wealth over others. STAY ALIVE HILLMAN

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