emotion and humaity

Human emotion is a powerful thing, something that should not be taken lightly. The spectrum of these emotions are all-encompassing, truly suited to every aspect of life from birth to death. The actions made upon these emotions can be well calculated and thought out, but then there are the rash decisions made in the heat of an upsurge of emotion. In my short life, I have not truly experienced the extremity or power of nearly all emotions because the need for some has not yet arisen. I am still out to experience the world and that is something that I intend to do. To truly fulfill one's life, I feel that one must explore the greatest emotional possibilities, always pushing the boundary to try and experience the next feeling. We are given our humanity through these emotions, so it is necessary to use them to the greatest extent. The ability to feel love and hate and anger and fear is what separates us from the rest of the creatures on this planet. I love just living and feeling. I love the way music can make an individual feel such a wide range of emotions that is completely different from everyone else who happens to hear that same piece. I love how someone can read a piece of literature and take something out of it that nobody else will. I love the way that you can feel around one person and will never feel that same way about another in the scope of your entire life. This is the true diversity of humanity. It does not stem from race or gender, but from the emotions that we feel throughout everyday life. We are separate in our feelings, but connected through the fact that we all inevitably feel them in every situation. I am beginning to see the merit of these emotions when I had often cast them aside without giving them much thought. In my advancing years I have become more introspective, constantly taking a look at how I feel about certain things and situations after I have experienced them. I do not know if it's old age catching up with me or I am going soft, but I am beginning to want more out of life than the same thing everyday. Change is a welcome occurrence. I need to get out and experience new things and new people. I need to experience a wider spectrum of humanity if I am to ever truly be able to live a complete life.

maybe a little haiku to spice it up?

Anyone up for a little poetry? If you are not, then I guess you do not have to read it. If you do not I might be a little sad though. Did you ever notice how hard it is to be sarcastic without actually saying the words? If you do not read it and/or like it, I truly could not give a damn. Feel free to comment if you like. I need to know if I have a future in the art of haiku.

sitting quietly
contemplating the world
the earth is crying

above me the sky
touching all that can be seen
I am but a man

society's hold
grasping at one small boy's mind
become the robot

the leaves are decayed
dropping slowly to the earth
riding the wind's breath

feel the pain of man
philosophy's questionaire
the swan song of life

a new love is born
a child cries out in the night
we are here to mourn

nighttime philosophy

Here are the most powerful points of my nighttime discussion with Brian Hillman about life and the way it should be lived. I hope that they somehow impact you and how you live.

1. Mistakes are great, they humble you. They make you a better person.
2. Being a failure for a lifetime is being a failure. Being a failure and learning from that failure is being a man.
3. There are successes in life and then there are failures. You take them cum grano salis.
4. Hillman: But life sucks.
Me: Sure it does, but then you grow older and wiser and realize that it really was not that bad.

As some of you may know, Brian Hillman is completely obsessed with the idea of going to and "elite university" because he thinks that it is the only way for him to be fulfilled. He does not believe in happiness anymore because he says that it cannot exist. He has also become increasingly depressed about the situation because the day of college applications is looming in the next year. I truly feel bad for him. There is nothing in this world more important to him than achieving this goal, not family, friends, emotions, or life. Every now and again we have a little discussion, just so I can see at what stage his mental health has deteriorated to. I feel the need to help him, but there is nothing I can say. He feels that his actions are completely justified by the philosophy that he reads and the types of people that he admires. Having him around in a group setting destroys the mood and kills and semblance of fun that existed. His trek to Homecoming this year consisted of mathematical calculations about his chances of getting into Princeton. No dancing, no fun. All of those above points were disagreed with by him. He no longer desires to live the life of a "normal" human. He would rather become a robotic amalgam of intellect and wasted emotion, living outside the realm of reality and humanity. Mark Twain once said, and for Brian Hillman, Samuel Clemens once said, "A man who carries a cat by the tail learns something he can learn in no other way." Failure is the best teacher. I hope that one day Brian will wake up and realize that most of his young life was wasted on an outlook as narrow-minded as the Nazis'. Yes, I went there.

explanation

This has been one of the longest Blogger draughts of all time for me and, sadly to say, it must continue. I have not been truly inspired to write something meaningful and I will not degrade the integrity of this blog with mindless jargon and complaints about the decline of television shows. I will however, be posting content with deep meaning that will affect all who read it. Or so I say. One topic I will be covering though, is intolerance throughout today's society, while focusing on a certain ignorant individual who goes by the name of Brian P A Coughlin. He happens to be another Jesus-freak who has nothing better to do than bash the gay community and homosexuals. I decided that I will eventually return the favor and do nothing but bash him for a while, see where that goes. Who knows, the kid may even cry. Until then, I bid all five of you readers adieu.

katie: redux

She's back with a whole slew of ignorance for your reading enjoyment. This comment was posted on a post that was brought to you courtesy of Brian Hillman and his quest for intellectual glory. Apparently she could not comprehend that I did not write that, but merely posted it to explain my disgust. So here is what she said and I quote directly:

"I, as you could have figured, do not agree with you on that. You may have very high goals for yourself...who doesnt? But saying that there is just nothing to life except "accomplishing" those goals is just (you might not like this) dumb!! I mean happiness is something that someone needs in life. It is not an illusion. Their lives are not pointless if they are happy. I know alot of people who wouldn't be too happy if I were just to kill myself. Everyone's life matters. Why would we be on this earth if it didnt? I know, I know...Im not going to get into that today. But there is more to life than becomming famous because you are smart. Or going to harvard or yale. I guess it's all a matter of how you look at it. So...what are you going to do after you achieve these goals? Find a girl...start a family...or is that all pointless, too? I mean look at the people you are talking about. Lets take President Bush for example. He wouldnt be here if it werent for his parents. Well, his dad was a president, too. What about his grandparents. They probably didnt do anything but give birth to someone that they didnt think at all (probably) would become president. Probably ordinary people who just had fun, enjoyment, and happiness. So that was another point. Where would we all be if it wasnt for our parents who were more than likely mediocre.
And people cant all be brilliant...then the world would be borring dont you think?

What are you going to do after you graduate college? Are you just going to sit there being that kid thats just brilliant? Have people awe at you for your greatness? And if you keep thinking this way, are you ever going to get married? Or are you just going to think that none of them are good enough for you? That they are too mediocre to even compare to your greatness. And if you do get married, and have these same views, how are you going to keep that marriage going? Without fun, enjoyment, happiness, and things like that then how will you keep your wife? How is she going to stay by your side if you dont make her happy?

I really dont get you...
in christ,
Katie"

To which I of course replied with this:

"Guess what Katie, I completely agree with you about that post. Those are the exact things that I told the author of that essay, but thanks for still finding a way to screw up. I realize that there is more to life than getting into a prestigious college and I realize that personal fulfillment is necessary to live a happy life. Of course I realize this, but I sadly did not write that little essay. My name is not Brian Hillman, I do not have a blog called brosiusblog.blospot.com, and I do not have an unhealthy obsession with becoming a famous intellectual. Do they teach reading comprehension at your school? If they do, its probably best if you look into taking something like that. Maybe next time you will not completely disregard the entire first paragraph of a post. I thought from all that Bible reading you would be able to at least comprehend what you are reading, but maybe that's your problem. I will not get into that with you again, but you must know my stance on the Bible by now. So basically, if you ever feel like posting a comment on something I have written again, make sure your not going to sound like a complete idiot in the process.

Yours in Self-Reliance,
Justin"

I cannot wait for our next exchange Katie, I have been missing you.